Fighting A Losing Battle

Life's not fair sometimes. I am coming up on my senior year in college and trying to write my resume. For the leadership roles section, I have nothing. I have tried to obtain multiple leadership roles since I have been at NIU but I keep getting turned down. For example, tonight was my chance to be an e-board member for PRSSA and I ran for two positions and I didn't get either. I think that it was because I don't have enough experience or leadership positions. So okay, maybe the people I was running against were better qualified than me. That's okay and they deserve the position. But then all I can think about is how there's one more leadership opportunity for them to add to their laundry list of experience and I am still left with nothing. How can I have any experience if I never get the chance to be a leader?

I feel like it is a pointless effort trying to put myself out there and show people what I can do. It is really frustrating to keep getting turned down. I try to help out whenever I can with anything, and it's like my effort doesn't matter. It's not just with PRSSA but with my jobs, school, friends, family and everything. I try as hard as I can to go above and beyond my duties to please people and I never get any recognition for my work. It's like trying to fight a losing battle. I want to show people what I am capable of but I never get the opportunity.

I just want people to see me, to see what I can do, to show them my commitment. I just want to be recognized...for once.